Nirvana: A State of Mind

Not To start off Reglious or anything, but buddhisum gave me a great idea for a blog....

The word Siddhartha is made up of two words in the Sanskrit laguage, sidda (achieved) and artha (meaning or wealth) Together, the words mean "One who has found the meaning of existence" or someone who has obtained goals. So far, I've lived my life without goals. When I look back on everything I went through, I wonder What I've accomplished. I look around, and everyone has reached their goals. No one seems to be as exposed as me. I've seen too much. And I guess that relates back to the Four Noble Truths, Suffering, It's nature, It's origin, It's cessation, and the path leading to it's cessation. My life has changed so many times, that I don't even know where I stand anymore. It's almost like a repeating Visicous circle, my problems lead to another, and the solution of those problems & or arising problems from it, bring me back to the first. Right now, In this point and time, I'm finally doing the things I loved and gave up on years ago. Yet I know, after the endings of this school year, the path will change yet again. I Really need to Reconnect with myself. It's a lot harder than I thought it would be. That's only because no one can completely "understand" and to have someone understand is the world to me, Also Things affect me far more than they affect others. I'm really Rambling off and getting all over the place with my topic, and that is mainly because I don't fully understand it. My New Years Resolution is to find the meaning of existence, and achieve some type of Nirvana, by blowing out greed, hatred and delusion and enter a perfect state of mind that is free.

P.S. Miss.Jones would be estatic if she saw my blog about buddhism! :D :D